Uh Oh! Here We Go Experimenting Again!

Inspiration

To all those women who have natural hair, more power to ya! I am not afrocentric or anything but when i chopped off my relaxed hair 3 years ago, I never imagined growing and taking care of this stuff on my head would be so hard. I will say it is a love/hate relationship, but it does suit me and I do love it on the good days. That said my inspiration was just to try something new. I usually twist my hair, take it out, and then pin up the sides..but i see people like Janelle Monae and convinced myself I could do better.

My original concept was the front would be brushed out and side swept into a kind of pinned up bang look. Then the back would be curly and krinkly from a twist out. ( I sucked taking pics of this process but take a peeksy)

Experiment

Ok so I put the satin cap on and slept on it. I took it out and it looked like poo. Soooo not having the energy to wash it, i swiped that baby up into an updo...came out lookin like the pic below. Still looks a lil birds nestish...but I rolled with it. (sorry, first pic is blurry :) )

 

 

 So lessons learned from this little experimentation:

1) Take the time to wash my hair and start from scratch i.e my natural curl pattern

2) Maybe follow someone else's instructions? lol, idk..we'll see how the next experiment turns out. 

THINK IN GONNA STOP COUNTING NOW

Inspiration:

Lately, I've been going through it. I'm switching from one job to the next, I'm embracing and struggling with my independence in Philly vs. having the support of many in Boston. I'm basically at that point where I'm reevaluating everything. I'm questioning if the things I once wanted are things that I want now. I'm curious to see whether things I could define in the past have that same definition now. To be honest, I don't like any of it. I am a creature of change but I've never liked transitions.

Anyway, one of the things that helps me through is knowing and remembering my own strength. While I wanted so badly to do something else that represents this and to get my creative juices flowing. I find myself to be so tired lately. (Things I have chosen to focus on are truly draining me right now) Also, I told myself that all creation can't be perfect and can't always be finished..so I've just forced myself to post even the things that I think are crap..and maybe i'll come back to them one day and work em out.

  

That said I put together a small collage ( I used to make a million large ones as a child out of magazines..) of female artists I'm kind of obsessed with at the moment. I'm obsessed with them because I think they symbolize personal struggles and inner strength..also they kind of just make me happy :-). I think they are all kick ass so i just put some pics together of them that i like. That is all..nada special but it is something. 

Creation #5: Did You Forget About Me?

INSPIRATION:

I don't really know what inspired this post. Maybe it's the restlessness that I've been feeling lately, maybe it's the fact that I have had energy for almost everything else but tapping into my creative self. Who knows.

One thing that I do know is I started this blog as an outlet, a challenge to myself. Somewhere along the way, I got lost. I got caught up in life's ups and downs, but mostly I got caught up in others. I forgot that I'm not putting this out there for others to approve or disapprove. I'm not posting only the things I think people would like to see. I'm not dependent on or counting the amount of followers. I'm being me. I'm finding a way to tap into my creative ability. So with that said, I did a little free writing and below is what came out.

 

"CREATIVITY"

Y can’t I find you? You used to make me happy in times of need. You used to give me faith when I felt even breathing was too hard of a task. Inspiration I need you. Motivation I miss you. Determination, you cannot be found. Creativity, you damn near drive me  insane. With the others, I can at least force my way through, possibly reconnecting to the past. But with you, only God knows what leads me to you. I need you to open me up like you used to. Use me, ravage the deepest parts of me till inspiration breaks free. I will let you. Take me to new heights to see. Scare me with my own potential. Intoxicate me with the aroma of my gifts so I can understand what its like to smell. But most importantly, Feed me my own doubt so I can taste the sweetness of achievement. 

I didn't create a picture for this one, but one picture that always seems to inspire me is the one below. Reminds me of the feeling of success and freedom. I freaking love dance...but that's another post :-)