Creation #5: Did You Forget About Me?

INSPIRATION:

I don't really know what inspired this post. Maybe it's the restlessness that I've been feeling lately, maybe it's the fact that I have had energy for almost everything else but tapping into my creative self. Who knows.

One thing that I do know is I started this blog as an outlet, a challenge to myself. Somewhere along the way, I got lost. I got caught up in life's ups and downs, but mostly I got caught up in others. I forgot that I'm not putting this out there for others to approve or disapprove. I'm not posting only the things I think people would like to see. I'm not dependent on or counting the amount of followers. I'm being me. I'm finding a way to tap into my creative ability. So with that said, I did a little free writing and below is what came out.

 

"CREATIVITY"

Y can’t I find you? You used to make me happy in times of need. You used to give me faith when I felt even breathing was too hard of a task. Inspiration I need you. Motivation I miss you. Determination, you cannot be found. Creativity, you damn near drive me  insane. With the others, I can at least force my way through, possibly reconnecting to the past. But with you, only God knows what leads me to you. I need you to open me up like you used to. Use me, ravage the deepest parts of me till inspiration breaks free. I will let you. Take me to new heights to see. Scare me with my own potential. Intoxicate me with the aroma of my gifts so I can understand what its like to smell. But most importantly, Feed me my own doubt so I can taste the sweetness of achievement. 

I didn't create a picture for this one, but one picture that always seems to inspire me is the one below. Reminds me of the feeling of success and freedom. I freaking love dance...but that's another post :-)